I have learned to live with what I have Blogmas#19

Today I will tell you what I am doing in my life. 

Who of you would say, "Look at her, she doesn't have a job, she lives on welfare." Yes, it's true. I live on social support. But that doesn't mean that I don't feel sorry for myself every day. Of course I do, and I do not care, I do not want to be on welfare. Unfortunately, I have nothing else to do but get through the month. 

That does not mean that I do nothing to get a job soon. 

I have been trying to get a job for the last two years, but I soon realised that my neighbourhood was not going to give me a job. So I can manage on my own. I thought about working from home. Somehow I don't think I have any other option. That's my dream too. I always wanted to be at home and take care of my family and go out for a coffee with someone once in a while. So to go to a meeting and that was kind of all I wanted. 

Of course, I only realised that about a year ago, that I literally had no other option. Nobody in my place will take me on because I have been away for 10 years and also because they don't know me and they have prejudices about me. I really do not want to work with people like that. I will work for myself and no one else.  I wanted to do voluntary work so that I could have the 100 euros more a month, but that didn't work out either, so I just gave up. I'm not going anymore, it's time to look after myself. 

I'm going to make something out of what I have (knowledge, blog, experience, etc.). I'm not going to look at others, I care. I don't care if they wonder where I get more money than them. Then I will laugh in their face and say; "You didn't mean to take me. But now you would, well now you won't!!!" 

That is exactly what will happen, and I will remove anyone who does not support me in my plans from my life. I do not need negative people in my life. There is not just one thing in my plans for the future, there are several, it is all laid out step by step. Of course, there is also the possibility of changing the steps or choosing a different approach. That is up to the environment and my financial situation. 

I would like to start from scratch and work my way up. That would give me a lot of strength. If you support me, that's great, if you don't, that's okay too. I don't mind, we all have an opinion. I don't think anybody should tell anybody that they are not going to succeed because that is the worst thing. It destroys their confidence, their courage, their hope for better. If you have failed, it doesn't mean that I won't succeed!!!! Nowhere does it say that it is impossible, but let whoever wants to say it say it. 

This is my opinion about dreams. At the same time, these are my plans for next year. I will give 100% to this. Maybe this year I will already live my dream.

That's the end of today's post, see you tomorrow!!!